Who will win? My mind or my body?

Are you hungry? Do you get hungry? How do you know when to eat? Most people I think look at the clock and say, I should eat now.  They get hungry because the clock says they should be.

Am I hungry? I don't get hungry very often. Sure, every now and then I am hungry - truely hungry; but most of the time I am not hungry. I look at the clock, it says noon and I think "Do I have to eat again? What should I have?"  My hunger scale never reaches 6,7,8,9 or 10.   I don't get a heavy feeling in my tummy. 

My relationship with food presently is I eat and I stop eating. Somedays though my relationship with food is the taste. It tastes so good that I want another peice and another and another. It's not that I started out real hungry, its just that I can't get over the fact that the taste is wonderful.  Its like my brain says "more".  I logically determine(as much as I can) if I should have more or not.  Seeking out the food seems to be a driver for me.  I wonder if its because I was once very overweight and my brain functioning and reasoning has not determined that. 

Most days I win. Why? because I don't want to become obese again. Subcontiously I probably desire them all but, I determine I should eat healthy foods instead. Why do I want to win? Because I don't want my body to revert to the prior me. I am much more healthier and happier being able to move and exercise and function when I eat healthy food.   I want to continue to win every day. Not my brain and prior adiction to food (that deep addictive desire).  Someday's my response to fatty/sweet foods is overwhelmingly "give it to me now".  However with Exercise its as if I have hit the "reset" button.   I am trying to change my behavior so that I stop having the battle with food and become more in balance.

Why do I want to win? I want to live longer, be healthier and acheive a state of living that allows me to do what I want to desire.  Today It might seem easy to say "I'm only going to eat what is on my meal plan".   But then I see the bun or the M&Ms....and I think...oh just one....just 1?!?!?  Some days I say okay, Just One (which ends up being 10); Other days are "no you don't get any".  

Being healthy is more about eating what is right, and less about exercise.  80% of the benefits are from your diet.  Will you win today?

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